Turing 18 is like being reborn in life, you stop going to a place that you used to go for 12 years straight, had a fixed routine, had someone to constantly tell u what u should be doing. You lose control of your life.
These are the exact thoughts and feelings I've been facing being a fresh 18-year-old. idk why my brain isn't processing the fact that I'm not a 12-year-old anymore and I need to change a few things abt myself and ik for a fact that everything that I'm feeling rn isn't new, isn't original, everyone has felt this so what made me so fucked up?!
well, hi im sanskruti and im from mumbai born in 2007. I turned 13 when COVID was on the rise, and we were all stuck in a lockdown. Life felt miserable cause puberty just hit me, and wtf was that. I had a little idea about it through school biology classes, but I wasn't sure exactly what it was. WHAT WAS I EXACTLY FEELING STUCK IN THOSE 4 WALLS OF MY ROOM, WHERE THE ONLY MOVEMENT OF MY BODY WAS TO USE THE WASHROOM AND TO GET MY FOOD FROM THE KITCHEN?
Damn man, wtf was i actually doing back then but thats not the point. The point is - lockdown was my cannon event. It made me more introverted than I was. It led me to have no friends in school, literally zero friends, ok lore time, but a year before covid i shifted to new school and they kids there never really spoke well with me so i make only one friend and she was new too and guess what?!?! she left the school during online school. SO LIFE WAS A LIVING HELL FOR ME WHEN I THOUGHT ABT OFFLINE SCHOOL. But it didn't bother me for a while cause school had been online for 2 years, so I was chill in my room rotting in front of the Zoom meeting where zero info went in my head, and basically, u can say I have skipped my 8th and 9th grade. AND WHEN 10TH GRADE CAME I HAD OFFLINE SCHOOL AND BY THE THOUGHT OF IT I SHAT MY PANTS.